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"The complexity embedded in the different levels of meaning that go along with the words "I love you" ought to be a whole mindfuck of a video game, if anyone ever wanted to develop the concept."


-Naomi & Ely

The Movie

SO much to say so little time. The movie was pretty good. I was so ecstatic when I heard main lines. But a couple of times I actually thought,"wow, this is bad acting." I was being pretty analytical though. When I read it in the book, it was sweet and beautiful, but actually seeing it on film, was extremely cheesy. Although, Edward was a vision. When the Cullens walked into the cafeteria for the first time the whole theater gasped. He was flawless. Bella was flawless. I'm so proud of the cast. I just wished everything wasn't as rushed. They needed more time for Edward and Bella's relationship to develop. Hopefully I will see it again soon!! Got to go to work, more later.


<3

Engulf Me

I have so much to say, yet so little time. Have you ever met someone that makes you feel so complete when your around them? I want to live, not drone or dwell. Going day to day and all I feel is nothing. What is wrong with me he asks? and yet I have no answer. But there is and I cannot explain it. So I do not talk, I stare, wondering how people live their lives differently than me. A drug, the yearning building up and over and incomplete. Spreads throughout my body, every inch covered , yet it is never enough. Why? Why? Why is it never enough? Just sedate me, to escape myself. Finally I will be free, but only momentarily, but for that sweet hour of laughing and hugging. Is it worth it? Then drained of all feeling. Shouting but still no one hears. Above all voices, mine is silenced and caged, and all I do is stare. Life will soon be over, bear with it. But for that joyous hour, live it. I wish every moment is this useless nothingness was as that sweet hour.

I tried to do handstands for you..

So i'm currently bored with the music I have and am searching whole heartedly for new stuff.

crawling up
crawling out
it will not come
it stays
bottled up
within myself

my best friend

is way more awesome than yours. So tonight was amazing beyond amazing, Sarah seemed to seal the deal by dating sean. Our friendship is becoming so much better, and its only been two days.! I think i just have a completely different attitude towards him now, that he has a girlfriend. It AWESOME. He suprised me with tickets to nick and norah along with the trip in gas to the movie theater and a dinner to boot. HES AMAZING. If you don't know sean, you may not know the big deal, but if you do know him,then you would know how extrordinary weird or strange this is. Nonetheless, Congrats to me! My hearts feeling much better tonight. Welcome back the best badasss duo ever! lol

i luhhh yoooo seanay.

Have I mentioned...

That I am completely opposed to school right now? I do not know why, but I have to desire to learn or even be at the institution. It is horrible. I hate going, seeing as it is completely pointless for me right now. It really is, I need none of the classes I am taking.

Everytime I'm feeling extremely depressed I'm going to start thinking "Woe is me." I was depressed, and I just thought that, and it made me feel extremely stupid, and then I laughed.

In awe.

I am currently in Jonesboro, Arkansas visting my father!!! I'm so excited. I love it here and I miss my family so much, even though they are a little for lack of a better word incompetent sometimes. So we drove up last night, my dad came all the way to Louisiana. Well, on the way home, we stopped at Arby's. It was around two o'clock in the morning I believe. My stepsitster stated that she was voting for McCain, and that she hated Obama and I replied with Why? She made a statement that Obama was "A christian that believed in Abortion." She just thought that was horrid, and she said "I don't understand how you can be a Christian and agree with Abortion.." I'm really not much for politics, I do not like discussing them, because I always feel that people are going to look at me like I'm stupid because i'm only seventeen, or I will end up saying something stupid and that will contribute to the mindset "She's just a youngin, she doesn't know anything." And I personally hate that label. Anyway, to which I replied, "I believe in God, yet I still think abortion is okay in some instances." You should have seen the looks I got from my own father and my sister. After that, my dad just had to chime it, telling me bible verse after bible verse. I said "Well dad, you were just talking about getting drunk in Mexico an hour ago..The bible says 'don't drink to excess' " to which he replied "Yes, and I was wrong for doing that"--talking about the act of getting drunk. Well, I personally believe that if you think something it TRULY wrong, then why boast about it? Because thats what he was doing, he was boasting about drinking in Mexico. Why be proud of your sin? Yet he sat right across from the table and told me it was wrong and that abortion was wrong. After that little conversation we were on the road again, and as I was listening to some Coheed, I kept thinking about this conversation. After I said that I believed in abortion in some instances they both gawked at me and started arguing with, did not even ask me why or how or anything. I think God has blessed me with an open mind. I'm so happy that I am open and able to listen to other people, and try to understand things from their perspective, I truly am blessed. I only ask that I can work on this, and try to be more open minded, yet still voice my own opinion without sounding pushy or be annoying. I'm very grateful for the way I was raised, with my mother, who instilled in me to be this way, unlike my father. I know this is going to sound bad, because I am happy they reproduced to make me =] but sometimes I do not understand how she fell in love with this man. But I think everyone has that family or family member, that is close minded and it always has to be their own way. In my case, its just my dads whole side of the family...

"Show me how to lie"

First of all, I just want to say that I really like the Offspring's new hit "You're Gonna Go Far, Kid." Its got their old feel, but at the same time still up to date. It is Sunday, August 31st, 2008. Gustav is supposed to be here soon. Mom and I have spent the day getting the house in order. Lizzies parents talked about going to Arkansas during the hurricane, they have a cabin only a few hours from my dads. I begged and begged them to take me with them. They said I could go, if they went, but guess what? They're not going. I'm out of luck. I've been really missing my dad a lot lately. I'm not sure if its just because mom is dating or if I'm going through this stage, but either way. Lizzie said the other day "It's only been like a month and a half since you last saw him." I don't know why, but that kind of hurt. I mean most kids see their father everyday, or at least every other week, in Seans case. B¨t I'm stuck with my dad living nine hours away...Moving on. We're "dog-sitting" for Mike, moms boyfriend...I know, weird. Anyway, I love it, I'm trying to talk her into letting me have a pup. I recently saw The Rocker in theaters. Jack Black would have been better for the lead, but i still enjoyed it. Friday, during the day, Courtney and Cara and myself had our movie day, which was awesome!! We watched Disturbia first and then Fight Club and lastly House of a 1000 Corpses, which is a Rob Zombie film. I've never seen it until Friday, but I rather enjoyed it, even though I'm not used to "horror movies." It had the same guy from The Rocker, which I believe is the same guy from The Office, but I'm not completely sure. Over all the Corpse movie was pretty funny. Cara plans on being Baby, for those of you who have seen it, for halloween. I also saw Babylon A.D. Friday night, which was a good movie...I guess. Okay, I'm off to watch the Sound of Music and play with the dogs.



P.S. I love my mac and everyone stay safe during the hurricane, as if your not going to try, still it makes me feel better to say it.

Boredom is sometimes inescapable.

Your Life as a Movie


1. Open up your mp3 player or itunes, or any music player.


2. Put it on shuffle...its awesome.




Opening Credits: Feed Us- Serj Tankien


Waking Up: Liquid- Jars of Clay


First Day of School: Duality- Slipknot


Fight Song: There for you- Flyleaf


Breaking Up: Higher- Creed


Prom:Skies Homesick at Space Camp- Fall Out Boy


Mental Breakdown: Fat Bottomed Girls- Queen


Driving: You Eclipsed By Me- Atreyu


Flashback: Prayer of the Refugee- Rise Against


Getting it Together: Maybe Someday- Black Stone Cherry


Wedding: Razor- DecembeRadio


First Child: Burritos- Sublime


Final Battle: You'll Always Be My Best Friend- Relient K


Death Scene: What's Going On- Marvin Gaye


Funeral Song: Green River- Creedence Clearwater Revival


End Credits: Goodbye for Now- P.O.D.

Cruelest Dream: Reality.

I like to watch my hair float in water.

Post Secret is Amazing..

Nick & Norah

“This,” he says. “This is why The Beatles got it.”
“I’m afraid I’m not following. . .”
“Other bands, it’s about sex. Or pain. Or some fantasy. But The Beatles, they knew what they were doing. You know the reason The Beatles made it so big?”
“What?”
“ ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That’s what everyone wants. Not 24-7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche or a blowjob or a million-dollar crib. No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can’t hide. Every single successful love song of the past fifty years can be traced back to ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ And every single successful love story has those unbearable and unbearably exciting moments of hand-holding. Trust me. I’ve thought a lot about this.”
“ ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand,’” I repeat.



MOVIE TO COME OCTOBER THIRD 2008. INCLUDES MICHAEL CERA & KAT DENNINGS.

Come sit next to me...

I really enjoy the whole blog thing, thats not on myspace, so I think I will keep this one up. Now that this is not a school blog anymore, I will post whatever I want on here, without editing. Although I'm not sure what to blog about right now...I believe I will just ramble a bit.
I am currently listening to Weezer's "Blue Album." Tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday...where have the years gone? My mother gave me one of my presents tonight, because she has to work tomorrow. She got me a red velvet ice cream cake, for which I am very grateful. I just forgot to tell her I do not like strawberry ice cream, but it's all good, I will still eat it. She gave me acrillic paints, and some canvas'. I'm in love. I decided to start painting, whatever I feel like. I think I will also take up writing short stories again. The freedom just intrigues me. My aunt gave me a wonderful record player for my birthday, while I was in Arkansa, and again I am in love. Sinatra is amazing, and I never realized how much I really like his music. Right now I have about six or seven albums, that include frank, the beatles, doors, and a few others. I'm building up my collection, but I have been unable to make a trip to time warp lately. Everything on the friends front seems pretty okay. Sean and I are working on our whole relationship, as in just being friends, thing. Erin left for the summer. Lizzie comes home in twenty seven days. Ninja is leaving soon. Morgan is in Little Rock right now, but will be back soon. Courtney is good, but she needs to talk to me more, there is stuff she is not telling me.
What I realized the other day, this is the longest I have lived in one place. Okay, not really, but the friends I have now are the closest I have ever been to anyone. It's extremely strange. When you are young, you will be friends with anyone. If you have the same backpack or like the same ice cream. It is so simple. But now, it is hard work just to keep up friendships. I feel like i'm slipping away. And I honestly do not mind that much.
I am still listening to the blue album.."Only in Dreams" is playing. I rather like it, but I'm going to read for a bit.

I haven't the foggiest...(12)

In some ways the film, “The Golden Compass” has attacked Christianity, maybe even Catholicism. In the book, it is more apparent, to some, than when put into film. The movie was intended for young children, and had no real intention of brainwashing people into atheism. Philip Pullman is simply arguing that there should be a separation of church and political power. In the past, when churches have mixed with political power, bad things have happened, and Pullman’s opinion is clearly just that they should stay separate. In an interview with MSNBC, Pullman answers many questions from eager readers across the United States. One question read, what was on everyone’s minds: “How do you respond to the claim that your books are anti-Catholic and promote atheism?”
Pullman responds with “In the world of the story — Lyra’s world — there is a church that has acquired great political power, rather in the way that some religions in our world have done at various times, and still do (think of the Taliban in Afghanistan). My point is that religion is at its best — it does most good — when it is farthest away from political power, and that when it gets hold of the power to (for example) send armies to war or to condemn people to death, or to rule every aspect of our lives, it rapidly goes bad. Sometimes people think that if something is done in the name of faith or religion, it must be good. Unfortunately, that isn’t true; some things done in the name of religion are very bad. That was what I was trying to describe in my story.
I think the qualities that the books celebrate are those such as kindness, love, courage and courtesy too. And intellectual curiosity. All these good things. And the qualities that the books attack are cold-heartedness, tyranny, close-mindedness, cruelty, the things that we all agree are bad things.”
Clearly in this statement, Pullman conveys that “His Dark Materials” was not meant to promote atheism, and all Pullman truly wants is good for the church separate from the corruption of politics.

I can guide a missile by satellite(11)

Starting in June, I plan on celebrating my birthday (June Fourth), by being with my friends. After that I’m going to see my dad who lives in Jonesboro, Arkansas for about two weeks. Then I will return to the great state of Louisiana, but only for a short time. I will then embark on a trip to Panama City, Florida, with Morgan =]. After returning to Louisiana, I will continue working at the Library with Courtney, and maybe others, over the summer. On June thirtieth, Lizzie comes home from Germany, and I will be spending most of my time with her. She wants a big Fourth of July, so we might have a big barbecue and go watch fireworks at the levee. Later in July, I will be returning to my father’s house for two weeks. After that, school starts. In doing all of these activities I plan on intertwining reading a few books and maybe go to a concert or two. I also plan on having a few movie marathons, which include the back to the future series, Indiana Jones series, fight club, and a few others. My mom and I also plan on going to the beach for a few weekends, every now and then. Sounds like a good summer to me!

for all the fans!

Outfoxed(10)

When the documentary "outfoxed" made its debut, the Fox news network had only four things they found wrong with it. Other than that Fox could be seen as accurately portrayed in this short documentary. Of the four, one was simply the name stated in a caption, referring to the West Coast Bureau, which should really be the Los Angeles Bureau. As you can see, the Fox news network found only miniscule details to refute. The bulk of the argument presented was mostly accurate. Robert Greenwald makes several points in this documentary. He states how the Fox news channel is a vital part for the Republican Party and how the media is basically campaigning for Bush. Whenever anyone that was a guest on the show, disagreed with something in a strong manner they were either cut off or told to “shut up.” This is highly inappropriate. The Fox News Network promotes one side of the story and that side only. They have no regard for presenting the truth, which in fact are both sides. One might refer to this act as yellow journalism. If a TV network is going to report the news at least let it be the whole truth, and not just what the network wants to promote. In a sense it seems like Fox has brainwashed society into believing only what they want us to believe, and that any other way is not right.


Sources:
http://www.outfoxed.org/Documents.php
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Outfoxed:_Rupert_Murdoch's_War_on_Journalism
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Outfoxed:_Rupert_Murdoch's_War_on_Journalism

I felt so symbolic yesterday...(9)

As most of you know, my best friend, Lizzie, is in Germany right now. Only two months and ten days until she returns! With her gone I have become very nostalgic. I keep thinking that I’m not ready to grow up. High school has passed so quickly, all I want to do is return to the days where everything was simpler. Everything seems to have changes so quickly without me even stopping to breath. I can tell that myself as a person has changed and so have some of my friends. I’m excited and not excited to begin these next few years. I want to begin my life and learn more about myself, but I want desperately to not leave my childhood behind. It seems there is a lot of responsibility that I am going to soon have to deal with, that I do not want too. The last few years I have grown up a lot. My interests in music, movies, books, and clothing have changed, and I cannot wait to see what it will turn to in the next few years. Who knows, I might even be living in London with my very own bookstore in a couple of years?