Janis Joplin sang "freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose,
Nothing don't mean nothing honey if it ain't free, now now."
I feel as if I am the wrong person.
This isn't my life.
I'm not supposed to be in college.
I have yet to lose everything and find no real purpose to my life.
What is my meaning?
& when will these questions be answered?
What am I doing to impact others?
What am I doing to help others?
I feel as if I have yet to have that life changing experience.
When will it happen?
Am I all I am doing is waiting?
To die?
& If I am, why not fill my life with ecstasy?
With things that make me laugh?
Make me happy?
This is not who I am supposed to be.
But Who Am I?
"now where is your god
does he hear your prayers
does he even care for you
his silence speaks loud and clear "
