Half the summer is already over..

My Louisiana State University orientation was this past week. I practically did nothing for two days. I did learn a lot about the campus and where I can find things though. Other than that I made a mock schedule. Fun! I feel that just now summer has finally begun. The past month has been nothing but responsibilities and traveling. Now I am finally free. Right. I went to see my dad a couple of weeks ago. I was supposed to be there for two weeks, yet only stayed a week and a half. The total amount spent with him=prob two days. The only time we spent alone was a dinner that lasted 45 minutes and his wife called and they talked for about fifteen or twenty minutes. My stepsister was upset. Of course it doesn't mean anything that I see him three times a year. So I came home early obviously upset. It wasn't like we were going to spend anymore time together anyway.
A few days later Sean and I got into the biggest fight of our whole friendship. Fun. I told him to consider us done and packed all of his stuff in a box and left it on his bed. Complete with old notes and pictures. I then proceeded to go home and cry my eyes out until the next afternoon to which he was found on my doorstep crying his eyes out. Oh how everything is fixed so quickly with an I love you and I'm sorry. My heart melted none the less. Although our friendship is still rocky, we are trying.
After the fallout, Cheri, Lizzie, and myself took a road trip to Destin, Florida. That was an interesting four days. This trip then brings us back to Orientation. Did I mention I was with Kyle Nugent at orientation? He aggravates me more than anyone in the world, but he does bring up interesting conversation. Anyway, So I am finding myself not in a mid-life crisis but a pre mid-life crisis considering I am but 18. Mrs. Cockrum has ruined me. I cannot read anymore. Something I once felt so much passion for has dissipated before my eyes. I've tried so many books but cannot seem to find the time. Right now it is Alice in Wonderland in preparation for the new movie. I'm on page two. So what to do to pass the time? Stalk my best friend, eat cades, and oh yeah I work at a library! FML. The rest of the summer should be rather interesting.

I feel

slightly too inadequate for the world.